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It hurts like the first timeThe very first time whenMy messages went unansweredCalls unreturned andThe waiting never endedEvery single timeIt hurts like the very first time. Few days of blissFew nights of loveContinuous as the loops of timeWith impending distress,Desperations and disappointmentsEvery single timeIt hurts like the very first time. Image Source: Google © 2020…

Dismissal

None of her friends could empathize For none had loved so hard and lost Few had fleeting flings While others had broken strings Meaning little while they lasted and nothing when parted Some had rings on their mates and beginnings of forevers in definite dates While all she had were blurs of memories and hopes…

Breathless

Sometimes the words get stuck in my throatThey choke me, cut my air offMake my eyes blur and mouth taste like acidThen my brain kicks into action…My breathing slows down and I count every single one,Grateful, I could still do that. And when I count to ten, my lids shut down. I crave that suffocation…

Pause

The ache that never goes awayThe emptiness that is ever presentThe coldness beneath the surfaceI have the urge to cry, kick and screamYet, I don’t let myself fall too deepI find myself staring at walls and facesPeople who talk, laugh, love and liveI’m watching life move fast in frontAnd I realise, standing still is only…

Variables of regret

There are things, over which we have no control overThe mistakes, the mishaps,The memories of them.Also there are things you have no idea aboutLike the happiness waiting at the next bend,The little things we have in life which we usually take for granted,Almost everything that we overlook. The good things fade easilyA smile, a laugh,…

This time

I wanna fall in love againBeneath the lustrous moonWishing on falling starsTo realize each other’s dreams. I wanna fall in love againNot madly or crazilyBut holding hands throughThe darkest nights of our minds. I wanna fall in love againEvading webs of frailty,And exist for eternitiesWithout waiting for it all to fall apart. I wanna fall…

Tranquil seconds

Thunders crashing downLightening flashing acrossThrough the dark night I watchThe sky raging war on the groundFor all the roaring and blazingIt is the calmest I’ve felt in agesThe qualms quiet downMaybe a storm is what it takesTo soothe another storm. Image source: Google © 2020 Janani Arvind. All rights reserved.

Misconstrued realities

I thought I was only a child chasing rainbowsWhen you came into my lifeI paused on my run and realizedI was all grown up and then some.With you came safety, a set of rose tinted glassesMy world burst with more colours than just the green grasses and random roses.I watched a life from outside of…

Haven (2)

A dark and endless chasmTo let all those insecure, apologetic thoughtsShady cravings, shameful hungersNerve wrecking fears and self hatredCome out and take shapeTo concede and comply with their existenceA part of the mind, so twisted, yetAching to be heard, hugged, held ontoPining for a little life to seep insideA part of the soul, hurt and…

Haven (1)

It creeps in slowlyCrawling through the nightThreatening to drown me, choke meIt makes me breathlessA scary, initial sinkingAnd then I begin to driftA glide into the murkinessSlightly dazed and befuddled. It is the blackened depth of my own mindA space- dark enough to paralyzeMy eyes, from tearing upMy heart, from crumbling downNumb enough to be…